自画像
布面丙烯/数字
40-100×50-120厘米
2016, 2019, 2021, 2022
Self-portrait
Acrylic on canvas/Digital
40-100×50-100cm
2016, 2019, 2021, 2022
In 2016, before going to university, I drew my first self-portrait in oil painting in a raw way.
From 2019 to 2020, I gradually found my creative direction and explored the method of painting with different shades of the same color to show the space. Thus, the self-portrait for 2019 was utilized this method to paint.
In 2021, I gradually walked out of the haze of obsessive-compulsive disorder. That self-portrait shows me at my brightest. 23 years old, healthy, handsome, with a light in my eyes. At that time, all adversities are nothing to be feared, all happiness has the power to perceive; all decisions are not too late to make, and all paths can be chosen all over again. Many people in the world may have had been in such a state, such a short and perfect state. I froze myself at this moment, more or less relieving my fear of "aging, death and being forgotten by the world".
In 2022, I have been in New York for a year. My creative content and form have undergone a huge change this year. At that point, two-dimensional images no longer satisfied me. I’ve had bigger dreams and immersed myself in them. And making that digital self-portrait was just a pastime in between projects.
Similar to many artists, I also have a narcissistic feeling at some times. Therefore, I have made many self-portraits since I learned to paint. For me, the meaning of self-portrait is not only to record my own image but also to record the ways I see the world and my understanding of art. Thus, every time I made a self-portrait, I can see how I’ve changed and what I’ve learned. This process might be considered as my art diary.